when poems suck
they really suck.




last night at around eleven my mother was blasting ramnstien and nine inch nails. what an experiance.

turns out the scale was on kilo's....

Daytime television

I am sick. I should've stayed home yesterday but I made up for it today, so it was cops, Oprah, court TV and me. And lots of tea. nug I feel like crap. but.i.must.get.better. And we have guests from France who like to wear no pants eating here. And getting drunk. I am pretending to be asleep because I don't like people and I don't like creepy old men. Two excellent reasons in my opinion. I hope IM better for Saturday I do appreciate a good work of art.

Demonic witching hour

Last night after finding my rosary to protect me from demonic possession(even though i am jewish) I turned off the light to go to sleep. Then I "sensed" something and decided it was Lucifer coming to eat my flesh so I decided to turn on the light. When I did there was a hella big spider. Usually I am able to get rid of spiders and then return to sleep bug free but this one was really freakin big. So I covered it with a teacup and put a post it with"spider" underlined on it so when my mother came to pick it up she wouldn't scream.
that was last night.

ahem

i was stood up at lunch today....
you better have a damn good reason.

Exhaustion to the point of failure

I am so tired. So very tired. When I was walking home from school (which was built by fascists) it was hot and I was lisining to tunic by sonic youth and as I passed the lavender bushes I almost started sobbing. I am not a depressed person, I do not have a disease, but when I am in school all I can think about is the best way to kill myself in all its irony. I'm not going to though. I'm waiting until I'm at least 30.

The truth has been told+ labor day

www.nothingnicetosay.com
funniest thing ever...if you know what there talking about.

so since I haven't really posted very much lately I'll try to do a nice long one. Today I was at borders (yes, corporate businesses suck but its a good bookstore) and I saw the most amazing fashion book ever. But its 85 dollars(!!), which I have saved but I don't know if I want to make the commitment. The book is called Sample, and it features 100 designers. The book is set up like a portfolio and has sketches, notes, ads, and backstage photos. I know I would pour hours over it. Its exactly what I have been looking for. If it was 50 dollars there would be no question but 85 dollars for a book is a lot. nnnnnngggggg I have no idea.
so this was the last weekend of summer. I think I did a good job closing it. Streaking, camping-sorta, and late night shadow puppet porn along with a little bit of intellectual thought. This weekend was almost magical, dream-like
god I felt so hollow on the tennis court.
and I saw two shooting stars and both times I wished for you.
I like how genny was to scared to go into the cemetery.
it makes me want to cry.
warmth at night




I hate school it totally drains me.

2046

I WANT TO SEE THIS MOVIE LIKE AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH